Be your own spotlight

by Lisa on Wednesday: Nov 02, 2011

Today, I took the day off from the gym. I worked out for the past 3 days in a row and figured a day off wouldn’t hurt me today. I would love to wake up early tomorrow morning to do Zumba again. It energized me so much when I did it on Monday, despite the fact that I really didn’t want to roll out of bed at that hour to do anything, let alone on a Monday morning. I have to remember how it made me feel during and after the fact so I can force myself to do it again.

The song in the subject of this post came onto my iPod just as I was starting to write this post and it really spoke to me. This morning at work I had to present some of the work I’ve been doing to a fairly large group and while I was nervous about it ahead of time, I feel like I did a good job and I actually enjoyed getting to show off what I’ve been working on. I’m naturally a very introverted person, but from time to time, something comes over me and I want to be the center of attention. I think that feeling ties into what I’m trying to accomplish with this project – I want to take away the insecurities I have (to the extent that this is possible) and be more proud of myself as a whole. I don’t want to hide anymore.

The plan for the rest of the day? Well, we have our usual Wednesday night obligation so we’ll likely not get home until around 8. Luckily we have some leftover homemade soup from a few days ago that will probably turn into dinner again tonight. If, for some reason, we don’t end up going out tonight, maybe I can force myself to get on the bike for a half hour and burn a few extra calories. We will see.

(title from “Spotlight” by Patrick Stump)

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